Alligator Tears

 

I had some breakdowns today. I had alligator tears today. Oh, how I miss you sweet Michelle. Not an hour goes by that something happens and your memory floods my brain. I think of how the roads flood, how the pasture turns into a lake. These are my feelings for you. Flooded, engulfed and totally present. Hard to miss the fact that when you look out your window, it’s raining, there is water gushing over the road into the pasture and you can’t tell there is grass anymore because it looks like a lake. This is how I would describe my feelings for you. A flood, rushing into my head. I don’t want them to dry up. I love our love. I miss our love. I hate that you are gone but I am so grateful I had you for 23 some odd years. You were my protector, my rock my better half. You are the one and only true love. I love you Ladybug. You are my flood, my rain, my sunshine and my rainbow. You are my everything.